radio silence

Relentlessly I am searching-

I must have missed the exit sign,

the last call.

Where were you?

I tried to yell, but-

They made us stand in lines.

And somehow,

I still gravitate toward you

You towards me- it’s not hard

We have existed in a rotation for too long

This curved path projected and doomed us-

elliptical

You are my peripheral, darling

In a force called gravity.

The only sight I have known.

Our trajectory named “allies”

You can turn around,

but you

Will move with me- still.

or maybe it’s against me.

Maybe it was always against me.

Either way

(And, neither way)

You’re lost

And you won’t pick up

I change the dial,

Kill the static.

Tune in and out and in,

Filtering out the sentiment and hindsight,

I am trying to find you,

and trying to let you find me.

But I cannot stay on this line

demanding a deafening reticence

Where the only muttering of you

is a broken promise

you call

radio silence

Oh, if he could love me back.

My desire to be near to you is always clearest when we're about to leave. 

I forget how you have carried me through time in your cloud.

And as we descend there comes 

the realization that I won't see you again

for who knows how long.

(Because really, I don't have a reason to.)

The mastered melody of how you speak to me will dissipate.   

And I won't be seen in the way you see me- clearly, poignantly. 

I will forget that you are magic and how you remind me that I am too.

That you are the kind of man who fills me up with value in a single glance. 

So I will conveniently forget the feeling

I will lose the glow

I will forget until tomorrow 

And the tomorrow after that

And the next time I see you

Whenever that may be

You will look the same 

All the same 

But 

A metal band 

On your left hand

Will remind me

Just how far away you are.